Day I don't know what. How about this is the title?

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: Didn't track today.  :/
Cups of water: 11
Cigarettes smoked:  3 1/2
Exercise: Walking around alot!
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
I've been a slacker.  Ugh, this is a pain in the butt!  Today, I dressed up in pajamas, slippers and a robe, and carried around a newspaper and coffee mug. Only one of my co-workers dressed up like we discussed yesterday!  The rest of of them wore their normal clothes.  Oh well.

Anyways, still working on getting in control.  I CAN do this!

Day 46

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 51
Cups of water: 11
Cigarettes smoked:  4
Exercise: Only walking around
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
Still not 100% on track, but I am still tracking everything, and I know that just doing the tracking shows me that I'm making some kind of effort.  J and I went shopping today for fruits and veggies and other stuff to have in our house to eat instead of the garbage.  Hopefully, we'll make progress together!

Day 45

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 57
Cups of water: 8
Cigarettes smoked:  3
Exercise: Walked around alot today
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
I can't remember if I wrote about this the other day, so here it might be again... J finally joined weight watchers which is really great!  Although we've had a couple of crappy days, which of course, makes us want to eat. :/  I think we might both do better supporting each other though, so that'll be great.

I read a blog a couple of days ago that was soo interesting.  It basically said that when you eat something you enjoy, you just need to remember that this is not the last time you can eat that food.  You can have pizza every single night if you wanted to, just do it in portions.  And I realized that I do eat like I'll never have it again.  When I eat chinese food, I eat so much!  How have I never realized that I can have it again tomorrow if I want to!  I think this came about because we never really got fast food growing up, so after I moved out and until now, I eat as if I'll never have it again.  Sad.

Day 42

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 66 unfortunate points.
Cups of water: 10
Cigarettes smoked: 4
Exercise: Walked around alot today
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
Better today. I think I was just worn out from the workweek.  Crap happens!

I cooked brown rice, chicken and vegetables today and added teriyaki sauce, which turned out quite delicious and healthy.  What messed today up was the chips and cheese I had for my morning/lunch meal.  Crappy!  The exciting part is that J started Weight Watchers today, which I think will be really helpful.  We set our first goal at 10 pounds.  Whoever reaches that first gets $100.  And then we'll restart to the next 10 pound goal and another $100.  We seem to work out pretty well when we have our goals and rewards in place, so I'm really hoping that this helps us change our eating habits for the better. YAY!

This is my motto for today.

Day 40

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten:58
Cups of water: 10
Cigarettes smoked: 2 1/2
Exercise: Walked around alot today
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
 I'm tired today.  I feel like the week just wore me down, and I'm just so tired. 

Day 38

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 57
Cups of water:8
Cigarettes smoked: 4
Exercise: 1 hour on the elliptical
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
Wow, it sure is easy to get out of the habit of writing daily.   I'm trying to think of blogging as a daily regimen; something to do each and every day.

I'm still not doing well eating-wise.  I don't understand why I'm having such a hard time; I just know that I need to change my attitude toward food, but it really is so much harder when your spouse doesn't support that at all.  He said he'd join weight watchers too, but so far, he's waffled in that too.  Sucks because we both did so whll when we were both trying hard, and supporting and challenging each other.

Day 34

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 57
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked: 4
Exercise: 1 hour on the elliptical
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
Overate again today, although after I did, I made myself get up and exercise for an hour.  I talked with J about the sabotage, which by the way, he did again tonight.  For a person who has a problem with overeating, especially when there's too much food, I really wish he wouldn't just act like it's no big deal, this eating bad.  Ugh, I wish it would click with him!!!

Day 33

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 54
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: none today
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
Went over again, though not too badly, and I still have 8 weekly extra points left.  With two days to go for this week, I should be able to finish out the week without using over my extra point limit for the week. YAY!

Tomorrow and Friday are going to be weird days because I'm not going to work and instead going to a beginner Excel class tomorrow and an expert Excel class on Friday.  I'm not really looking forward to them, mostly because I don't really like taking classes. LOL, and I'm pretty good with Excel anyways, if there had been a medium level class, I would've taken that one.

On to tomorrow!

Day 32

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 53
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: 1 hour on the elliptical, 8wwp+ earned!
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
I found Marie Callendar's steamer meals at the store last week, they're healthy, but there were only two different kinds here, not surprising.  The chicken teriyaki was soo delicious, and then today it was pepper steak, which was a little spicier than I like, but still good.  Both are only 7 wwp+!  Awesome!  Anyways, all was going well and then J decided to order pizza and it all went downhill from there.  I know we both lost weight amazingly well when we supported each other, so it's frustrating that he's being so unhelpful!  I'll have to talk with him about it tonight.  I need the help from him of not getting crap delivered for dinner.  But still, I did make the good decision to exercise, and I did still track everything I ate, so a couple of positives there.

Day 31

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 71, so way too many.  I thought I did well, but then I found out that the breakfast I ate was waaay less healthy than I thought.  I had made granola bars last weekend, but they didn't harden enough so I've been eating some of that with milk in the morning.  I measured a half cup, but that small amount ended up being more than 17 points!  Never again!
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: 55 minutes on the elliptical- None today
Points remaining: 0

Thoughts for today:
Went way over, not just because of the oats, but I overate tonight big time.  Ugh.  But the good part is that I resisted eating a payday bar that I wanted to, and made sure to drink extra water.  And another positive note; I'm 3 for 4, 75% on plan, which is great for me.  On to tomorrow!

Day 30

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 44
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: 55 minutes on the elliptical- 7wwp+
Points remaining: 1

Thoughts for today:
Today, I ate within my points, YAY!  Like I mentioned the other day, I've made healthy decisions today and it's so much easier to keep on making them.  I'm excited to keep on going!

Day twenty-nine

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 48
Cups of water: 10
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: 1 hour on the elliptical, which is 8 wwp+ earned
Points remaining: -3

Thoughts for today:First off, weigh-in this morning was 291.2 pounds, which is -2.4!!!!!  Whooo!!!

This morning, I had oatmeal, milk, a banana, and 2 hardboiled eggs for breakfast- 10 points.  That's a good, nutritional, healthy breakfast.  It's a great start.

And I am going to a pinterest party this afternoon, where we each bring a craft to do, and an appetizer all from the pinterest boards.  We're actually doing things that we pinned and want to do, but otherwise, probably never will. :)  I'm making roasted chickpeas, which are healthy, YAY!  One dish in honey-cinnamon.  I'm excited to try it!  I think everyone will like them.  It'll be hard to count the points of whatever other people bring, so I'm going to try to stick to the chickpeas, but for everything else I try, I'll just count one point for every 1 bite.

Craft-wise, I have no idea if what i want to do will work out.  I was going to have some mason jars, cover them in a kind of glue and lightly colored epsom salts.  Then I could change it with the seasons; orange, brown and red candles with same color ribbon around the top in fall; blue, white, red, or green for Christmas time; etc.  I love the idea, I just haven't been able to find what I need in any of the stores in town, hardly surprising considering we, literally, live in the middle of nowhere.  Luckily, I was able to find everything I needed.  The candle holders look really pretty.  I'm happy they turned out so nicely!

Day twenty-eight

WWP+ (weight watchers points plus) eaten: 39
Cups of water: 8
Cigarettes smoked:4
Exercise: None extra
Points remaining: 6!!!

Thoughts for today:I did well today.  I re-joined weight watchers and decided that I was going to make healthy decisions today; I was not going to think about tomorrow or next week, just today.  And making healthy decisions just for today is actually not very hard.  It's all one decision at a time.  Why is it so much easier to make healthy decisions after you've already made a healthy decision?!?  When I make a poor decision, it's easier to make another poor decision, and another one.  Ugh!

I'm going to be tracking points now, instead of calories, so to clear it up, my points target (what to aim for) is 45 points each day.  Besides that, I get 49 points weekly that I can use whenever, where ever I want.  Yesterday, after all the healthy decisions I did, I ate 39 points.  I could have had six more, but I ended up just sticking with what I ate.  I feel in control for a change which is a great feeling!

Day Twenty-seven

Calories eaten: 2250 approximately
Cups of water: 8
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: None extra

Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 150 calories

Thoughts for today:
I think I've realized I need to learn how to eat properly.  I need to learn how to control my emotions and find ways to divert myself when I feel like eating.  J and I decided we're going to try weight watchers again. (We had to stop before because of money, but we had both lost nearly 31 pounds before then).  I'll be signing up tomorrow, and I'm excited because I know that WW helps you to learn how to eat better, and to control those swings.  Wish me luck!

Day twenty-six

Unfortunately, J thought he had a possible appendix rupture in progress yesterday, so we went to the ER (I met him there at work), where we waited 5 hours before being seen.  After the x-ray, it turns out that all the vomiting and runs he had for the last couple of days, he had the flu, inflamed his intestines to the point of swelling, and causing his body to not be able to move anything in the intestines.  No passing gas, nothing.  And it caused extreme pain in the area that the appendix would be.  Thank goodness, because a medevac trip to Anchorage can cost in excess of $25,000, and insurance would only cover a very small amount of that. :/  We weren't even released until after 1, so in all, it was 9 hours.  Crazy!

Calories eaten: No idea
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked:4
Exercise: None, only what I got at work

Basic Metabolic Rate:
That's a calorie deficit of:

Thoughts for today:
Ugh, I'm still tired, so none. 

Day Twenty-five

Calories eaten: 2800 approximately
Cups of water: 8
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: None extra. :(

Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About -400 calories

Thoughts for today:
I feel very lame.  I know how this works but I haven't been very good at getting into the swing of things yet.  J is sick, so my schedule feel kind of messed up.  I can do this, just one day at a time!

Day Twenty-four

Calories eaten: 2300
Cups of water: 10
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: None extra. :(

Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 100 calories

Thoughts for today:
I did ok today, until dinnertime.  But tomorrow's another day.  That's what I have a hard time remembering.  And I only have to make it one day at a time.  If I could just make one day of good decisions, then I would be a success.  Then it would be the next day.  Why am I having such a hard time doing that?