Day Twenty-three

Calories eaten: 2300
Cups of water: 10
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: 1 hour on the elliptical

Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 1369 calories

Thoughts for today: I didn't do a great job today, eating well, but I did exercise, and there was definitely a calorie deficit, which is at least the start of the right idea.  I wish we had another day this weekend.  It sucks that we have to go back to work tomorrow! :(  But at least dinner is already made!

Day Twenty-two

Calories eaten: 2000 approximately
Cups of water: 9
Cigarettes smoked: 4
Exercise: None intentional, but I did the freezer cooking, so was standing literally all day.  I only sat for lunch, about 30 minutes between 10am and 4:40pm.
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 400 calories

Thoughts for today:
I did alright today.  I did a bunch of freezer cooking and put 46 dinner servings, 18 breakfast servings and 4 dessert servings in the freezer!  They're all healthy, which will be great!  I won't have to cook every day after work, which I can so appreciate.

My weight this morning was 293.4 pounds, which is a loss from my last weigh-in. YES!

Day Twenty-one

Calories eaten: Not sure
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked:4
Exercise: Only what I did at work
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About ??? calories

Thoughts for today:

Day twenty

Calories eaten: 3000 approximately
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: Only what I did at work
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About -600 calories

Thoughts for today:
I'm not on target and have definitely been struggling with my self-control.  It sucks!  I weighed myself after we got back home after babysitting and despite not the greatest job of eating/moving, I was down a few tenths of a pound.  I'm in at 293.7, so that's something positive.

I'm working on the plan for the freezer cooking these evenings.  All week, I worked on finding a number of recipes that are freezer friendly.  Tonight, I'm working on making a shopping list of all the things I need.  Tomorrow after work, I'll be going shopping for everything I need and then on Saturday, I'll be doing the cooking.  I'm going to try to get it all done in one day.  Wish me luck!

Oh, and it snowed today! YES!!! Winter is coming; my favorite time of the year!  It makes everything look clean and fresh and so much more pleasant.

Day ninteen

Calories eaten: 2850 approximately
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: Nothing extra. :(  This weekend, I really hope I can get a handle on all this.
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About -450 calories

Thoughts for today:
Crazy day at work today.  This week feels like it's going slower than molasses!

Day eighteen

Calories eaten: 2400 approximately
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: Just unpacking all our stuff.
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 0 calories

Thoughts for today:
I am so incredibly happy to be done babysitting the beasts!!!  SO HAPPY!

Day Seventeen

Calories eaten: 2400 approximately
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked:4
Exercise: Chased the kids around the house with pillows for awhile.  It was definitely a workout and made my asthma kick up.
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 0 calories

Thoughts for today:
The kids were tuckered out from said pillow-chasing/fight above, and T fell asleep on his bedroom floor! LOL, it was too cute.  When he's asleep anyways.  Their mom should be back tomorrow, so we should be done once we get them off to school. YAY!

Anyone excited for the Walking Dead in 3 weeks??? I'm stoked! Can't wait for it!

Day sixteen

Calories eaten: 2400 approximately
Cups of water: 10
Cigarettes smoked: 2
Exercise: Laundry...
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 0 calories

Thoughts for today:
 Only 1 1/2 days more!  YAY!

In preparation for doubling down on eating healthy and appropriate meal sizes, we've ordered a food scale and a couple of healthy freezer cookbooks, to hopefully give me a decent guide in freezer cooking next weekend.  I also ordered a yoga and pilates dvd for plus-sized people to try out. (Spending my birthday money from last month).  Can't wait for it all to come!

Day fifteen

Calories eaten: 2200 approximately
Cups of water: 2
Cigarettes smoked: 2
Exercise:
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 200 calories

Thoughts for today:
Counting down the days until we're done watching these hellions!  Only2 1/2 more days.  YAY!  And then I'll have my elliptical again, which will be a huge relief.

I've been doing some research on healthy freezer cooking, and have seen a lot of info on it, that shows how beneficial I can be.  Everything would be portion controlled, I would know that the food is healthy and that there's no garbage in it, so much better for J and I, and I wouldn't have to cook when I get home from work, which is a huge reason why we order out too often!  I think next weekend, I'm going to do shopping on Friday after work and then I'll spend several hours on Saturday cooking.  I don't know why I've never thought of this before!!!

Day fourteen

Calories eaten: Note sure.
Cups of water:13
Cigarettes smoked:3
Exercise: Only the walking at work
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About ? calories

Thoughts for today:

Day Thirteen

Calories eaten: Not sure.
Cups of water: 11 
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: Still just walked around at work alot.  It was a crazy day today!
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About ? calories

Thoughts for today:

Day twelve

Calories eaten: 1967 approximately
Cups of water: 8
Cigarettes smoked: 2
Exercise: No official exercise, but walked around the house alot, washed the dog, moved quite a bit. Again. I MISS MY ELLIPTICAL!!!
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 434 calories

Thoughts for today:

Day Eleven

Calories eaten: 1967 approximately
Cups of water: 8
Cigarettes smoked: 2
Exercise: No official exercise, but walked around the house alot, washed the dog, moved quite a bit. Again. I MISS MY ELLIPTICAL!!!
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 434 calories

Thoughts for today:
I would be excited for the weekend, except that we still have to watch the kids.  Ugh!

Day Ten

Calories eaten: 2000 approximately
Cups of water: 9
Cigarettes smoked: 2
Exercise: No official exercise, but walked around the house alot, washed the dog, moved quite a bit
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 400 calories

Thoughts for today:
I'm blogging and saving the drafts until I have time to post the blog.  This baby-sitting thing is a pain in the tush!

Day Nine

Calories eaten: 2000 approximately
Cups of water: 9
Cigarettes smoked:2
Exercise: No official exercise, but walked around the house alot, washed the dog, moved quite a bit
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: About 400 calories

Thoughts for today:
Not too many.  Sucky that I have to go back to work tomorrow, but what can you do?!?  At this point I'm counting down the days until we're done watching these kids.  They've proven to be stubborn, disobedient, and honestly, very frustrating because they don't want to do anything we ask/tell them to do.  The straw was tonight when T did something mean to a much littler kid in the neighborhood and when J and I got him inside (after him running and hiding from us for 30 minutes), he showed no remorse, or shame or anything.  It's really sad that he's like that.  He absolutely should be ashamed and just, nothing. UGH!!!

Day Eight

Calories eaten: Still didn't count, though hopefully not horrible.  It's hard to overeat/binge with a couple of kids around, who want some of whatever you're having! LOL
Cups of water: 8
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: Probably about 1 1/2 miles of walking the dog on a walk your pup day with one of the kiddos, but no idea of how many calories burned.
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: ? calories

Thoughts for today:
It was cold, sprinkling and muddy, but me and T walked, quite a bit.  Then we had chili at the place sponsoring the walk, but mine wasn't very good so I ate less than half of it.  Probably still ate considerably more than I should've, but I did move more than yesterday, so that was ok.

Day Seven

Calories eaten: Not sure, but I'm sure more than I should have.
Cups of water: 10
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: None except walking around ALOT at work
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: ? calories

Thoughts for today:
J and I are babysitting a couple of our co-worker's kids for 11 days at their house, so I don't have access to my elliptical, and it's a little bit harder counting calories, and/or blogging with a couple of slightly (whiny) kids around.   This blog is actually a day late, but I couldn't get on the internet.

Day Six

Calories eaten: 1620
Cups of water:10
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: 1 hour on the elliptical
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: 2039 calories

Thoughts for today:
 Definitely did better. I knew I could do it!  Got home from work and actually made dinner with J.  And I did  exercise!  Woot!

Day Five

Calories eaten: Way too many.  I can't believe how many.
Cups of water:12
Cigarettes smoked:3
Exercise: None today.
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of:  None, I'm sure.

Thoughts for today:
I admit, I'm a terribly emotional eater.  I really have a hard time controlling myself as well, and I swear, I really am a binge eater.  I wasn't even hungry for everything I ate after dinner tonight.  I knew we shouldn't have bought the oreos.  I was just kind of craving it, I guess.  Sigh, well, that's the point of this journey, isn't it?  Learning about myself, learning to be a better person, I knew it wasn't going to be easy.  I can so do this!

Day four

Calories eaten: 2346
Cups of water: 8
Cigarettes smoked: 2
Exercise: 60 minutes on the elliptical= 1269 calories burned
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of:  1323 calories burned

Thoughts for today:
Ugh, J ruined it again! LOL, he was stuck on the idea of pizza because the pizza place was closed yesterday.  So we had pizza.  Darn it!  It's really hard to resist pizza.  Tomorrow, whole wheat pasta spaghetti.  Period.

Day three

Calories eaten: 2522
Cups of water: 8
Cigarettes smoked: 2
Exercise: 60 minutes on the elliptical= 1269 calories burned
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of:  1147calories burned

Thoughts for today:
I was going to do great today, but J ended up working late and since I had to wait for him, we stopped at Subway on the way home.  I always end up going overboard at subway, even though the food can be healthy.  Tomorrow night, whole wheat spaghetti and green beans!

Day Two

Calories eaten: 2000
Cups of water: 12
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: 60 minutes on the elliptical= 1269 calories burned
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of: 1669 calories burned
Thoughts for today:

Not half bad actually.  Still ate more than I had intended, but I'm getting a little bit better at telling myself no to excessive chocolate and things like that. If I only had one each day, it would only be 70 extra calories.  That's definitely not unbearable.

I watched the movie Lying to be Perfect with Poppy Montgomery today, and I kind of found it to be motivational in getting in shape and losing weight.  It's a cute movie.

Day One

I started losing weight as of January 2012, when I realized I had reached a total of 322 pounds.  I couldn't believe I had let myself get so overweight!  My hubs and I both started losing weight and as of August, were down a little over 25 pounds!  We went on vacation and I gained about 5 pounds, but I'm back down now.

I plan to weigh myself weekly, to exercise daily, to eat a healthy diet, to curb my emotional eating habits, to drink more water, to smoke less cigarettes,

ALL

to be able to shop in normal stores,
to wear a bikini someday,
to not feel as if family or friends are judging what I'm eating,
to get my belly button pierced,
to get a tattoo on skin I know won't be saggy or funny looking,
to be able to have sex against a wall with J,
to feel sexy in bed or in lingerie,
to be comfortable in an airplane seat,
to not have to wear a seatbelt extender,
to KNOW that I'm attractive to J,
TO FEEL ATTRACTIVE TO ME!!!

Every day, I'm going to fill out a template to use this blog as my journal, that I'll update throughout the day.
Calories eaten: 2651 (WAY too many!)
Cups of water: 13
Cigarettes smoked: 3
Exercise: 1269 calories burned on the elliptical; help make up for overeating.  I'll do better tomorrow!
Basic Metabolic Rate: Approximately 2400 calories
That's a calorie deficit of:  1018 calories burned
Thoughts for today:
       I'm so excited that I'm starting this blog.  I've been slacking for awhile lately and my weight's just been hovering and I'm tired of it.   It'll be great seeing the progress I know I'll be making, and even better having this blog to motivate me.